I Just Need A Hug....

Ok. Well, as you know (I'm not sure who "you" is, though), Sicle and I have been going through some very hard emotional times latelly. I know Sicle has stated her parts on what is discomforting to her. Today, I shall do the opposite. I shall state what I have done, and how I know it has hurt others. This is an attempt to appoligise to Pop incase she reads this before I see her tomarrow morning.



1. I "stole" my buddies crush. This is possibly the worst thing that a friends could do to another. It began with us both flirting with him, then I selfishlly took charge. I captured him as mine, and thought nothing of it. Now that I take the time to slow donw and thimk about this, it makes me feel sick inside. I can not express to you Pop just how horrible I feel.



2. I continue to flirt with him. OH MY GOD!!!!! THIS IS TEARING ME UP INSIDE!!!! I honestlly can't dicribe in words how awefull I feel. I know all you out there can't tell, but I an on the verge on tears! It is so hard to actually realize what I have done...



3. I have said many hurtful things. At the time they did not seem hurtful, yet I could feel the words in an unpleasant way. I appoligise from the bottom to the top of my heart for what I have said. I don't know what else to say.



Can you excuse me for a moment? I need to get up and get a tissue. This will only take a moment... I think.





All right, I'm back. Now I know that I could go on forever about examples of what I have done, but I an going to stop. Instead, I have a little speach I would like to present to Popsicle.



I know that I am not perfect. NO body is. But latelly, I have been able to identify more and more things that I have done wronge. I fully acknoledge that I have TRUELLY hurt someone who is very special to me. I think it would be a good idea if we just got together and did nothing. We just spent the day together and relaxed. We get rid of all our harsh feelings and renew our souls. Maybe we could even get some ice cream and just pig out while watching America's Next Top Modle.

I need a hug. A big, friendship hug. I have truelly "shattered one of my friends hearts, and it sickens me. I don't know how else to discribe it. I don't want to sound emo, but this is honestlly how I feel. You mean a lot ot me Pop, I'm just not sure you know how much.

-A very tearfull Izze

You will be recieving a big hug tomarrow, and it will be the biggest, saddest, wettest, and most emotional hug you have ever recieved. EVER. You know what, we are going to spend some time together, and we are going to enjoy it. We can do yoga, and release all of our bad energies. Sound good?

Ok. I'm done now.